i told u so...

Suppose I called you up tonight
And told you that I love you
And suppose I said I wanna come back home
And suppose I cried and said i think I finally learned my lesson
And I'm tired of spending all my time alone
If I told you that I realize you're all I ever wanted
And it's killing me to be so far away
Would you tell me that you love me to
And when we cry together or
Would you simply laugh at me and say

I told you so
Oh, I told you so
I told you someday you'd come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so
But you had to go
Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again

If I got down on my knees and told you I was yours forever
Would you get down on yours too and take my hand
Would we get that old time feeling
Would we laugh and talk for hours
The way we did when our love first began
Would you tell me that you miss me too
And that you've been so lonely
And you've waited for the day that I returned
And we live and love forever
And that I'm your one and only
Would you say the tables finally turn

Would you say I told you so
Oh, I told you so
I told you someday you'd come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so
But you had to go
Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again

Now I found someone new and you will never break my heart in two again

ombak rindu

My Swagger Jagger Fwen

Swagger Jagger, Swagger Jagger 

You should get some of your own 

Count that money, get your game on 

Get your game on, get your, get your game on 

You can't stop lookin' at me, starin' at me, 

Be what I be. 

You can't stop lookin' at me, so get off of my face 

You can't stop clickin' on me, writin' bout me, 

Tweetin' bout me 

I can't stop, this what is gon' be, my swagger's in check 

Get on the floor, get, get, get on the floor 

My swagger's in check 

Get on the floor, get, get, get on the floor 

I got it in check 

Swagger jagger, swagger jagger 

You should get some of your own 

Count that money, get your game on 

You're a hater, just let it go 

Swagger jagger, swagger jagger 

You should get some of your own 

Count that money, get your game on 

Get your game on, get your game on 

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/c/cher+lloyd/swagger+jagger_20914927.html ] 

You can't stop shoutin' at me, hollin' at me, be what I be 

You can't stop looking at me, so get off of my way 

You can't stop YouTubin' me, on repeat, running this beat 

You can't stop this one is a me, I'm laughing all the way 

Get on the floor, get, get, get on the floor 

My swagger's in check 

Get on the floor, get, get, get on the floor 

I got in check 

Swagger jagger, swagger jagger 

You should get some of your own 

Count that money, get your game on 

You're a hater, just let it go 

Swagger jagger, swagger jagger 

You should get some of your own 

Count that money, get your game on 

Get your game on, get your game on 

Hiiii haters, kiss kiss 

I'll see you later 

Hiiii haters, kiss kiss 

I'll see you later 

Hiiii haters, 

It was very, very, very nice to meet you 

Get on the floor... 

Get, get, get... 

Get on the floor... 

Get on the floor... 

I got it in check 

Get on the floor... 

Get on the floor... 

My swagger's in check 

Get on the floor... 

Get on the floor... 

I got it in check

p/s : fren, i love u more den everything. please, do love me. n dun hurt me. hugs! xoxo.

penantian ku berakhir...

setelah sekian lama aku menunggu kelahiran bayi itu. akhirnya...25/10/2011 pada tengahmalam itu seorang bayi perempuan lahir..entah la apa perasaan aku saat itu. banyak sungguh benda berlaku pada kebelakangan ini.

mom and dad

beberapa konversation aku dengan ayahanda tercinta menusuk jantung dan hati ku.. sakit terasa tetapi itu yang terjadi. aku tidak minat untuk menyakiti tapi itu yang terjadi.. msg yang paling menusuk jiwa aku bila dia berkata "tidak semua yang kita mahu kita dapat, God is Great, keep praying"... aku terlupa yang aku ada Tuhan yang sentiasa bersama aku. Aku tahu aku banyak dosa dan tidak berserah kepada Nya untuk mengampuni dosa2ku.. Sakit bena ku rasakan apa yg berlaku Setiap msg yang daddy antar membuatkan aimata ku menitis.. setiap patah ianya amat bermakna. aku tahu itu semua menyakitkan mammy n daddy tp itu hakikat yang harus d terima. aku jenis yang tidak dapat menerima kenyataan. dan susah utk menerima kegagalan. Oh Tuhan, berikan kebahagian kepada Mammy n Daddy aku.. 

26 August 2011

awal pagi saya bangun mcm biasa.. ingin mengemas rumah.. tiba2 hp saya berbunyi.. num yg asing bagi saya. nak tak nak saya jawap.. saya jawap. rupa2nya kwn saya bernama vivian call saya.. tiba2 dia sunyi.. dan menangis.. saya heran.. meraung dia menanges..saya tanya kenapa.. hampir terjatuh hp saya.. tapi ai mata saya menitis- nitis.. Ya Tuhanku, kenapalah kami d uji sebegini.. itu benda pertama kuar dari mulut saya.. Vivian call mengkhabarkan bahawa bf dia meninggal dunia.. Bf dia kwn baik saya. my besties forever... payah saya ceritakan apa yg berlaku... semoga dia dijaga dengan baik oleh org2 yg beriman dan di berkati Tuhan.. Ampunkan dosa dia Tuhan dan jaga dia sebaiknya. kami semua sgt merindui dia...my Anthony Dunggat.. 

Suddenly, i miss my mummy. :(

my 25th bebday

She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free
Catching me in places that I knew I should'nt be
Every other day I crossed the line I didn't mean to be so bad
I never thought you would become the friend I never had
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All that you did was love
Mama I love you.Mama I care
Mama I love you . Mama my friend. You're my friend
I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now
Every little thing you said and did was right for me
I had a lot of to think about,about the way I usedto be
Never had a sense of my responsibility
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love
Mama, I love you. Mama, I care
Mama, I love you. Mama ,my friend. You're my friend
But now I'm sure I know why,
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All I can give you is love is love
Mama I love you. Mama, I care
Mama, I love you. Mama, my friend,You're my friend
Mama, I love you, Mama ,I care
Mama, I love you, Mama, my friend, You're my friend 

che cheng che cheng

saya suka memblog sebab ini saja cara saya dapat meluahkan apa yg ada dalam hati saya. berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu memikul..keletihan ini tidak dapat di bendung lagi. tapi keletihannya ku harus sembunyikan sebab dia lebih memerlukan aku...dia akan mati jika aku meninggalkan nya.. dia sgt sgt memerlukan aku... Oh Tuhanku, tabahkan hati ku. kuatkan semangat aku, makbulkan doa ku.. 

jauh dalam sudut hati aku, sayu aku melihatnya. sayu sungguh ku melihat dia...dia sentiasa bersama ku susah senang.. dia tidak pernah memandang rendah kelemahan aku..dia la kekuatan bagi ku. saat ku lemah, dia menjadi semangat ku.dia la segalanya. ibu bapa kmi jauh. kami hidup sendiri.. saling bergantung pada satu sama lain.. mcm isi dan kuku..

beban yang kami berdua tanggung sekarang, hanya Tuhan yg tahu keperitannya. Ya Tuhanku, berkati yang terbaik untuk kami.. Terima kasih atas berkat Mu selama ini. saat kami dalam kesusahan begini, tiada yg sanggup bersama kami. saat kami kesenangan, byk yg mendekati.. itulah manusia. tapi xguna mengeluh. yang penting kini, kami berdua sehat. kami berdua bahagia dengan apa yg kami ada. kerana kami faham, setiap yang berlaku, ada hikmah d sebaliknya. 

rintangan demi rintangan berlaku setiap hari dalam hidup kami.. tabah semestinya.. kadang2 kami rasa tersungkur dan tunduk menyembah bumi...saat lemah semangat begini ingin saja menyudahi nafas ini...tapi mengenang org yg masih memerlukan kami di muka bumi ini lebih2 dia.. dia pasti tidak hidup juga di bumi ini..jangan buat cerita sedih. 2 org kwn di temui tidak bernyawa di sebuah resort...nakka ngutik dah resort ya? okay...

yang penting sekarang, kami jaga diri baik2. kami hidup baik2. kami diberkati selalu. itu yg penting sekarang. Tuhan, jaga kami baik2. terima kasih ya. 

status kontroversi

byk alu kwn2 ku sik cayak dgn apa yg berlaku. ow tedah...

banyak gik.. hahaha..138 igek komen.. 

lawak eh.. bang bang boomm.. hahahha!!!!! 

gotcha!!

i hide to cry..

I hide to cry
because I have no where to call my own
and "happily ever after" is a land too far away,
just after once- upon- a- time; just this side of the rainbow

and no one really cares anyway

I hide to cry
because I know I will never leave this place
and dreams don't really come true
its just all make- believe

and it really doesn't matter

I hide to cry
because my weakness brings my tears
and I have no one to hold me close
no one here who loves me

and no one really cares anyway

I hide to cry
because I embarrass the moon
and she is my only friend
but she's too far away to hold my hand

and it really doesn't matter anyway

I hide to cry
because no one really cares anyway
and is this pain even real
it really doesn't matter

and no one really cares anyway

I hide to cry
because no one validates my pain
and no one really cares
so why should I...

Letting Go

Dear Mr M.


How do you walk away from someone you love
And take the road of friend;
Can you reroute the course you have taken
And start over once again?

I don't really want to let you go
But inside me I know I must;
The times we've loved . . . the times you've left
My heart says stay . . . but it's my mind I must trust.

We have shared so much together
Laughter . . . fun times . . . tears;
Yet sometimes we can't turn back time
We must walk away, and allow ourselves to heal.

I know one day you will be happy
And your soulmate you will find;
I know we each have one out there
Even if for now . . . only in our minds.

May life be gentle with you
May God's best come your way;
And on some quiet tomorrow
You will realize things were better this way.

sayangi diri anda

semakin hari saya semakin sedar betapa perlunya menghargai hidup sendiri. bersyukur dengan apa yg ada.. saya tahu saya byk kekurangan.. saya tidak sempurna. saya ada 17 parut d kaki saya yg buat saya rasa saya buruk. kadang2 saya mengeluh. tidak apa. saya bersyukur kerana saya tidak kehilangan kaki terus seperti org lain. saya menghargai peluang yang Tuhan beri dengan saya...

saya sudah tidak mahu bercinta lagi buat sementara waktu kerana saya rasa semua itu membuang masa. saya ada byk lagi benda yang harus d buat. komitmen terhadap keluarga dan kawan saya sgt tinggi. saya rasa bertanggungjawab terhadap mereka. saya tahu saya garang tapi saya baik. sesiapa yg pernah berkawan dgn saya tahu saya baik. jika anda rasa saya kurang baik, maaf. rasa bersyukur dalam diri harus ada.

saya bersyukur ada seorang mak yg garang. kerana kegarangan mak saya menjadikan saya sehingga ke tahap ini. mak saya suka ngerepak. byk bercakap. haha.. mak mak.. tp saya syg mak saya.. saya bersyukur ada seorang bapa yang penyayang. dia sentiasa memenuhi keinginan saya walaupun kdg2 dia bising...hahaha.. elek la mak...

saya ada kereta. saya ada rumah. saya serba ada. tp saya tidak pernah puas. sebab itu saya rasa saya patut idup dengan bersyukur.. syukur itu nikmat.. dulu sya berpendapatan saya kurang kasih sayang tapi kini baru saya sedar, byk org d sekeliling saya sgt menyayangi saya... saya rasa itu cukup,. terima kasih Tuhan...

Pizza Wif Boifren!!

Happy Bebday Cello

u r my soul sister. u r my best fren. u r my forever fren. thanks for everything. percaya padaku, aku akan menjagamu... happy bebday. xda hadiah ku berik ngan ko pok. kasih sayang jak ku ada... :)

Yang Tongek Dan Congek

saya ada kawan baru. nama dia juju. saya kenal dia sebab dia add saya d fb. dia kwn kepada tito. so dia kenal saya dari tito la. itu mcm cara nya. juju ini tongek dan congek mcm saya. tapi kami berdua memang cute. tiada org d dunia dapat lawan kekiutan kami berdua. cello pun xdapat. hahaha.. juju ini gadis lunbawang yg sesat tp saya suka dia ckp lunbawang. memang da best la. saya ingat dia pura2 mengakuk lunbawang. rupa2nya nang bena. hahaha... saya tahu dia sayang bangat sama saya. pertama kali saya jumpa dia, dia malu2 sebab mesti dia ingat saya budak baik tidak gila2 mcm dia. saya bawa dia makan cucur pusuk d matang lorong 6. hahaha... saya bw dia jalan2 sama itu mamat dan jack sparrow!! hahaha... tapi sy berkawan dgn juju seminggu lebih saja sebab dia mau balik kl lepas itu dia mau pg U.K. saya rindu dia suda. :(

saya tahu kami berdua boleh menjadi kawan terhebat. mula2 saya malu nak meluah perasaan dgn dia. belum biasa lagi...sekarang semua saya share dengan dia. dia baik. tp dia tidak cute mcm saya... hahaha... tp kedua2 kami tongek dan congek.. uwerkk... hahahaha.. 

cermin mata ini buat kami 3 rasa lucu dan gumbira. tengok baju kami... uwaaa.. comel kan kami 3...uwaaa... saya rindu saat2 ini.. rindu banget.. rasa mau nanges saya taip2 benda d blog ini tengok blog ini... juju ini ngegeh sebab time dia maok balik kl, jumpa saya tidak mau. saya call pun tidak mau.. nanges saya... dia ckp, mak dia pun pelek sebab dia nanges mcm mati laki.. hahaha.. kesian dia....

Saya sangat menghargai persahabatan kami. Cello, Juju, Momo, Vivi, dan Anet. sesiapa juga yg berkawan dgn saya, saya sgt syg dan menghargai kamu semua.... Juju, saya baru kenal kamu tp saya rasa kamu mcm adik saya di kelahiran lalu.. terima kasih... Cello, kamu tahu betapa saya sayang kamu. Momo, terima kasih atas segalanya... Anet, walaupun lama suda kita tidak berjumpa tapi saya masih ingat kamu... Vivi, walaupun saya selalu garang dgn kamu, sayang sy tidak penah pudar utk kamu... Tiada yang lebih membahagiakan saya selain dari memiliki kamu semua.... :(

Wonderful July

hidup ini letih dengan benda2 yang tidak sepatutnya membebankan. haha.. saya sgt menghargai july tahun ini kerana byk perkara indah yang berlaku. Cello dapat keja d lundu. Vivian dah hbs belajar. monica dah keja juak. Tinggal aku jak yg elek2..bukan rezeki. lagipun masih mau relek2...

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hari2 gembira saya tolong jgn ambik gembira saya...

You're Amazing, Carlson

Say a prayer, say a little common sense
Stay right there, stay right there in our defense
Give a little, bit, give a little bit more
Just a little bit, babe a little bit more

You're amazing, you're amazing and its true
No one can save me, no one can save me like you do
This is crazy, yeah its crazy but its true
Baby save me, baby save me like you do

Stay away, stay, close enough to care
I love that name, yeah I see it everywhere
So can we get along, can we get along much more
Just a little bit, babe a little bit more

You're amazing. you're amazing and its true
No one can save me, no one can save me like you do
This is crazy, yeah its crazy but its true
Baby save me, baby save me like you do

And when you found me I was barely breathing
You take my heart and you make it even
I'll be your strong side
I've grown
And every part of me will never go back
Its what you started in me you better know I'm all yours...

So believe me when I say
You're amazing, you're amazing and its true.
No one can save me, so baby save me like you do
This is crazy, yeah its crazy but its true
Baby save me, baby, baby, save

You're amazing, you're amazing and its true
No one can save me, no one can save me like you do
This is crazy, yeah its crazy but its true
Baby save me, baby save me like you do
Baby save me like you do

What Im Doin At Lundu This Weekend

having fun wif mammy n daddy family. :(  i miss dem so much. so much. mamy cerita tek cdak bulak Carlson, ada perempuan Bidayuh will pick dem. Fair skin. Mcm Cina kata mamy. time cdak tunggu d pasar Lundu nang surprise abis nya nanggar aku yg ambik. mamy padah nitis2 aimata nya.. omg! such a sweet moment. he really2 loves me. i love him too, my lovely cuzzie. Cdak mamy spend da whole day d lundu.. i miss dem ordy.. :((