bila hati sudah sayang segala nya umpama pelangi indah di paris. pertama kali ku melihat nya, berdegup kencang hati ku. aduh hensemnya lelaki itu. puas ku memerhatikan. tiada senyuman di mulut nya. biasa saja muka itu. ku lihat dia begitu kosong. begitu indah ciptaan Tuhan itu. sehingga aku bertanya kepada Tuhan di mana Tuhan menyimpan lelaki sehensem dia. berdetik hati ku siapa kah dia. aku tersempak dia di rumah Tuhan. puas ku berfikir bagaimana ku ingin menegur nya. lantas adik ku menegurku, dia itu sepupu kita. adik nya serupa nama dengan namaku. aduh Tuhan. kenapa ditakdirkan begini. tidak adil. aku menoleh ke tepi. aku abaikan perasaan aku.. aku abaikan segala nya...

dua bulan kemudian ku terjumpa dia di laman muka buku. terdetik semula hati ku.. puas ku berfikir.. puas ku termenung lantas ku mengambil keputusan untuk berkawan dengan dia.. aku dengan hati yang gagah memulakan bicara. tidak mendapat respon. aku diam. biarkan. mungkin dia sibuk dengan kerja nya. aku abaikan lagi perasaan itu tapi jauh di sudut hati ku mengharapkan respon dia.. sejenak ku  termenung. ku dengar isyarat muka buku ku ada respon. dia membalas respon ku. 

hubungan kawan kami hari2 di iringi ketawa riang.. hari2 ingin berjumpa. separuh dari jiwa ku hanya dia. segala masalah dan luahan di kongsi bersama. tiada cacat cela nya kami. hari demi hari semakin berubah. tak ku sangka tak ku duga. benar kata pujangga cinta, pasir pantai mana tak berubah.. wujud insan ketiga. tidak ku rebut dia itu kerana ku tahu aku tidak mampu. biarla dia yang menjaga hati ku itu.. aku lepaskan dia walaupun hati ku sungguh sakit. 3 hari ku menangis. aku abaikan perasan ku itu.. :( 

2013 meninggalkan banyak memori yang indah yang duka. biasalah dalam kehidupan ada suka duka. hidup menjadi tidak menarik jika hidup ini sentiasa indah. lupakan hari2 yang menyedihkan dalam hidup. ingatkan yang indah. jadikan yang duka itu satu pengajaran satu kenangan yang menjadikan kita lebih kuat dalam hidup.. 

2013 membawa banyak kesan dalam keluarga kami. ada duka ada suka. segala rezeki dari Tuhan di dahulukan dengan terima kasih. Segalanya cukup mengikut kehendak Nya. Datang dan pergi dalam keluarga itu semua takdir Tuhan. kita menerima dengan seadaanya. doa dan semangat di sertakan kepada ahli keluarga yang sakit dan sudah tiada.. Cuti gawai bulan June menemukan semua keluarga. meriah yang teramat. sungguh bermakna dalam hidup kami kerana itu membawa kami sekeluarga lebih rapat. yang tua dan yang muda bersuka ria dengan riang nya.. Terima kasih Tuhan kerana kami semua sihat segala... 

helllooooooooooooo... macam ku rindu jak ngau blog ku. setahun dah ku nda update.. mcm ka nyadi blogger baru... nyu ka abis tahun 2013 tok. baru ku update baru... :) maioh tai ka d update ku pok.. hahhahahaa... mcm syukk jakk

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Setelah setahun baru ku teringat aku ada bloggggggg. comellll laaaaaaaa.. wll update everything soonnnnn..

Earth Hour At Damai Central

sampai damai central around 8.30pm. lampu memang suda padam. earthour la kan.. :)  byk la juga org. cuci mata dowwwh.. a bit boring but hv fun.. ngeee!! terjumpa byk kawan lamak. terutama nya Mervin Mo. i missss himmmm~ makin hensem la diaaaaa... :) terjumpa ex-bf bersama gf lama dia. hahahha! malu tinguk saya.. itu laaaa sapa suruh buat jahat dgn saya... hahahhaa.. setahun suda tidak berjumpa. weeewwwwittt... sorry to say arrr, im happy without u.. yuhuuuu~ afta dark concert, apa gik pg zebra.. rutin harian.. :) hahahaha... penuh giler.. den wanna go back. check2 ada org nahan kereta. nebes saya. nya negur sticker d kereta saya. sticker samseng tek nak.. hahahhaa.. in da end of da cerita?? laki ya salute saya. yaaaahhh!! sapa gengster sapa sik tok?? hahahhaa.. baruk u tauk saya sapa... jeng2!! 

saya sayang kawan saya...

tiada bahasa seindah kata. mereka yg terbaik. mereka tersayang. huahuahuahauahau... :)

Magdelene And Madelina

i love both of dem too much. i love dem more den others. i got my bestfren like Cello, Momo, Vivi and Annete.. tapi kedua-dua Cik M ini yg sentiasa dengan saya.. kami pergi shopping bersama, makan bersama, tido bersama.oppss!! i mean in da right way.. ahaks!! kami suka benda yg sama. cuma fesyen berbeza. yala.. minat terhadap fesyen adalah berbeza. umur pun dah jauh beza. saya suka bila saya di tanya "adik beradik kaaaa??" perasaan mempunyai adik sgt bahagia... kan best kalau saya adik betol2.. :( sikpa. dey are more den sister... :))))... i love u madelina and magdelen!!!!!! 

saya sakit

hari ini saya rasa sakit. kaki saya. :( saya sangat menderita dengan kaki ini. jika ada yg ty saya apa yg saya ingin utk xmas, saya ingin kaki yg baru dan sila removekan besi d kaki saya. sakit bangat sih.. :( saya tido awal malam ini. gudnite peeps.

Maafkan-d'bagindas.

tersentuh hati nurani ku mendengar lagu ini. lebih2 mengenangkan kawan2 yg sentiasa emotional bila berhadapan dengan masalah cinta jarak jauh. ahaks. tapi hakikat lagu ini memang betol. setuju. xdapat di nafikan hati ini sentiasa dahagakan kasih sayang. ingin d kasihi. ingin d sayangi.. :) check dis song out. 

maafkan aku menduakanmu
mencintai dia dibelakang kamu ohh
salahkah semua tingkah lakuku
yang terlalu menyakiti kamu, kamu

ku tak bisa menahan rasaku saat kau jauh dariku
tak bisa hidup tanpa cinta, cinta

maafkanlah aku melukis luka
membuatmu bersedih mengundang air mata
cinta tak mengapa kau marah
tapi satu ku pinta jangan kau usaikan kita

ku tak bisa menahan rasaku saat kau jauh dariku
tak bisa hidup tanpa cinta, cinta

maafkanlah aku melukis luka
membuatmu bersedih mengundang air mata
cinta tak mengapa kau marah
tapi satu ku pinta jangan kau usaikan kita

maafkanlah ku melukis luka
membuatmu bersedih mengundang air mata
cinta tak mengapa kau marah
tapi satu ku pinta jangan kau usaikan kita

maafkan aku, maafkan aku
maafkan aku, maafkan aku, maafkan aku

Read more: http://mp3indodownload.blogspot.com/2011/07/lirik-lagu-dbagindas-maafkan-aku.html#ixzz1q2MUwmOW

Airbrush Tattoo

kami susah hati jika lalu waterfront kuching. ye laaa.. asyik nak buat airbrush tatoo. lucu. sibok sgt.. tapi kami nie umpama gula. di mana kami d situ la byk org. rimas rimas.hahaha... tapi best laa.. suka bangat.. check this out. 

my birthday bash!

tarikh bebday saya sudah lalu tp birthday bash baru diadakan. bla2 bla.boring alu naippppp.. csndbcihebchsab cxm834ur893y94t973hgjdccbvv... hahahaha.. xda gambar bebdayyy.. bulakkk..!! hhahhaa..

Kawan Kawan ku Yg Jegit

saya ada dua org kawan yg jegit macam saya.. hahahhaha... pic show more den words. enjoy!!!

Magdelene And Madelina

"Someone Like You"

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, "
Yeah

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Yeah

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Yeah

p/s : ka nyabak ku maya ku upload pic tok..hahaha.. love u twooo...!!

i told u so...

Suppose I called you up tonight
And told you that I love you
And suppose I said I wanna come back home
And suppose I cried and said i think I finally learned my lesson
And I'm tired of spending all my time alone
If I told you that I realize you're all I ever wanted
And it's killing me to be so far away
Would you tell me that you love me to
And when we cry together or
Would you simply laugh at me and say

I told you so
Oh, I told you so
I told you someday you'd come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so
But you had to go
Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again

If I got down on my knees and told you I was yours forever
Would you get down on yours too and take my hand
Would we get that old time feeling
Would we laugh and talk for hours
The way we did when our love first began
Would you tell me that you miss me too
And that you've been so lonely
And you've waited for the day that I returned
And we live and love forever
And that I'm your one and only
Would you say the tables finally turn

Would you say I told you so
Oh, I told you so
I told you someday you'd come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so
But you had to go
Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again

Now I found someone new and you will never break my heart in two again

ombak rindu

My Swagger Jagger Fwen

Swagger Jagger, Swagger Jagger 

You should get some of your own 

Count that money, get your game on 

Get your game on, get your, get your game on 

You can't stop lookin' at me, starin' at me, 

Be what I be. 

You can't stop lookin' at me, so get off of my face 

You can't stop clickin' on me, writin' bout me, 

Tweetin' bout me 

I can't stop, this what is gon' be, my swagger's in check 

Get on the floor, get, get, get on the floor 

My swagger's in check 

Get on the floor, get, get, get on the floor 

I got it in check 

Swagger jagger, swagger jagger 

You should get some of your own 

Count that money, get your game on 

You're a hater, just let it go 

Swagger jagger, swagger jagger 

You should get some of your own 

Count that money, get your game on 

Get your game on, get your game on 

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/c/cher+lloyd/swagger+jagger_20914927.html ] 

You can't stop shoutin' at me, hollin' at me, be what I be 

You can't stop looking at me, so get off of my way 

You can't stop YouTubin' me, on repeat, running this beat 

You can't stop this one is a me, I'm laughing all the way 

Get on the floor, get, get, get on the floor 

My swagger's in check 

Get on the floor, get, get, get on the floor 

I got in check 

Swagger jagger, swagger jagger 

You should get some of your own 

Count that money, get your game on 

You're a hater, just let it go 

Swagger jagger, swagger jagger 

You should get some of your own 

Count that money, get your game on 

Get your game on, get your game on 

Hiiii haters, kiss kiss 

I'll see you later 

Hiiii haters, kiss kiss 

I'll see you later 

Hiiii haters, 

It was very, very, very nice to meet you 

Get on the floor... 

Get, get, get... 

Get on the floor... 

Get on the floor... 

I got it in check 

Get on the floor... 

Get on the floor... 

My swagger's in check 

Get on the floor... 

Get on the floor... 

I got it in check

p/s : fren, i love u more den everything. please, do love me. n dun hurt me. hugs! xoxo.

penantian ku berakhir...

setelah sekian lama aku menunggu kelahiran bayi itu. akhirnya...25/10/2011 pada tengahmalam itu seorang bayi perempuan lahir..entah la apa perasaan aku saat itu. banyak sungguh benda berlaku pada kebelakangan ini.

mom and dad

beberapa konversation aku dengan ayahanda tercinta menusuk jantung dan hati ku.. sakit terasa tetapi itu yang terjadi. aku tidak minat untuk menyakiti tapi itu yang terjadi.. msg yang paling menusuk jiwa aku bila dia berkata "tidak semua yang kita mahu kita dapat, God is Great, keep praying"... aku terlupa yang aku ada Tuhan yang sentiasa bersama aku. Aku tahu aku banyak dosa dan tidak berserah kepada Nya untuk mengampuni dosa2ku.. Sakit bena ku rasakan apa yg berlaku Setiap msg yang daddy antar membuatkan aimata ku menitis.. setiap patah ianya amat bermakna. aku tahu itu semua menyakitkan mammy n daddy tp itu hakikat yang harus d terima. aku jenis yang tidak dapat menerima kenyataan. dan susah utk menerima kegagalan. Oh Tuhan, berikan kebahagian kepada Mammy n Daddy aku.. 

26 August 2011

awal pagi saya bangun mcm biasa.. ingin mengemas rumah.. tiba2 hp saya berbunyi.. num yg asing bagi saya. nak tak nak saya jawap.. saya jawap. rupa2nya kwn saya bernama vivian call saya.. tiba2 dia sunyi.. dan menangis.. saya heran.. meraung dia menanges..saya tanya kenapa.. hampir terjatuh hp saya.. tapi ai mata saya menitis- nitis.. Ya Tuhanku, kenapalah kami d uji sebegini.. itu benda pertama kuar dari mulut saya.. Vivian call mengkhabarkan bahawa bf dia meninggal dunia.. Bf dia kwn baik saya. my besties forever... payah saya ceritakan apa yg berlaku... semoga dia dijaga dengan baik oleh org2 yg beriman dan di berkati Tuhan.. Ampunkan dosa dia Tuhan dan jaga dia sebaiknya. kami semua sgt merindui dia...my Anthony Dunggat.. 

Suddenly, i miss my mummy. :(

my 25th bebday

She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free
Catching me in places that I knew I should'nt be
Every other day I crossed the line I didn't mean to be so bad
I never thought you would become the friend I never had
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All that you did was love
Mama I love you.Mama I care
Mama I love you . Mama my friend. You're my friend
I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now
Every little thing you said and did was right for me
I had a lot of to think about,about the way I usedto be
Never had a sense of my responsibility
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love
Mama, I love you. Mama, I care
Mama, I love you. Mama ,my friend. You're my friend
But now I'm sure I know why,
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All I can give you is love is love
Mama I love you. Mama, I care
Mama, I love you. Mama, my friend,You're my friend
Mama, I love you, Mama ,I care
Mama, I love you, Mama, my friend, You're my friend